
"No dress?"
Azara felt the blade of her mother's eyes cutting into her very spine. Nonetheless, Azara stood firm. A person that embodies the likenesses of proud beasts should never cower, even before their own creator.
"
No, there
will be no dress. I agreed to greet them, not to curtsy at their son and bare my breasts in the study over tea." came the princess' sharp reply, a cross between exasperation and amusement.
She loved her mother, but they were always at this same impasse. She busied herself with her own tidying, preening her jacket and adjusting her cufflinks. No maids were currently present, she had even dismissed her own lady-in-waiting for the remainder of the morning to oversee her own attire. She stood before an ornate golden mirror that spanned most of the length of her bedchamber wall and was at least double her own height. She rather liked seeing everything happening in the room at once- no secrets, no hidden beasties. Well, save for her mother, of course.
"Greeting them like a proper lady is hardly the same as bedding him." the queen snipped. Her beautiful crimson hair never lost its glow, and the heat in her scarlet eyes never lost their spark. Azara was her mother's spitting image- if not for the prideful, boarheaded posture and tendency to smirk to the side.
"I've a campaign briefing soon, mother, can this wait?"
"No, it can't! You know how long it takes to prepare the proper attire for official meetings of this nature, Azara, can't you-?" continued her mother, her voice getting higher and higher like the trill of a panicked bird, practically a shriek.
As per her habits, Zara's left brow rose ever so quickly. "Mother, only dogs can hear you right now. Ah! I know, why don't you make Davar wear a dress for the meeting? He's got your attitude and your fashion sense, he's practically the perfect lady."
"AZARA!"
A shrug. "WHAT? Was any of that even a lie?" she laughed, her mother plopping down on the nearest settee as though stricken with grief.
"You've gone rogue on a dozen suitors! You are a PRINCESS, your brother is a PRINCE. Far be it for me to explain to foreign nobles why I've presented them a man in a dress. Just for one day, can-" her mother tried again, feeble, begging. Azara strode to the seat at her mother's side and gave her a very genuine and well-intended peck on the forehead before she could finish. "You won't be, you'll be sending them a woman in a suit." came the cheeky response, after which she straightened her jacket and headed for the door. "I've already forgotten when they're slated to arrive, send for me when they've hit the gates and I'll be along shortly."
Azara didn't wait to hear her mother's reply or to again analyze her mother's face. Perhaps this was her own form of rebellion, something like revenge upon her parents' constant and blatant attempts at marrying her off. She knew they meant well, and she had long since known how other princesses fates aligned with such a narrative. There was no shame in being a wife, a mother, a lover- but more than anything, Zara craved her father's seat. The seat above all, the seat that shook the earth, changed the legislature, the seat that could lift the burdens of tradition off of her for good.
A man in a dress. A woman in a suit.
A woman on the throne.
These men could watch from the sidelines for all she cared- a husband was of little to no consequence.
Azara
would have that seat, regardless of whether or not she had to cross blades with her own brothers to get it.
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"No dress?"
Azara would've called it deja vu if she weren't seated across from the royal advisory cabinet and the strategist union. Yet again, her left brow hiked to the ceiling. This time, it was Davar. Spindly, jealous, conniving, salty wee lad that he was, ruddy brick colored hair and eyes like mud, angry and unfeeling. He was barely a year her senior, and yet he carried the appearance of someone highly inconvenienced by the slightest gust of wind. Practically from their wetnurse days, Azara and Davar were all hands, on sight, any time, any place.
Azara clicked her tongue like a mother hen. "Why? Are you cold? I'll have the finest silks brought into this campaign room and we," she gestured across the table before them, laden with plans, budgets, geography, and symbolic figurines and onward toward her constituents, "can ALL help you prepare for the arrival of the Von Stratton envoy." she chuckled, met with silence from the rest of the table. It was probably highly comedic for all present, but anyone save for the royal family that laughed at Davar would be in for a bad time. He was an incredibly vengeful little man.
"A woman with no decorum, no dignity, has no place in this war room! You're chickening out of uniting us with the noble families again!" he sputtered, slapping a thick packet of unsigned documents to the tabletop. His sister found the claim extremely funny. "I don't seem to recall discussing dresses and jewels for the past two hours before you decided they were of such high importance. Your royal highness,
darling brother, let's wrap this up, hey?"
He stormed out of the room in yet another of his fits, likely to tell their father in over embellished detail. The heavy redwood doors slammed with a dramatic
thud.
There was a brief silence that followed, interrupted only by another lady official, a senior on the advisory counsel. She adjusted her glasses and whispered just loudly enough for those nearby to hear. "I think you look dashing, your majesty."
Azara's lopsided grin didn't escape anyone. Usually compliments flustered her, but one such as this was a delicate yet symbolic reminder of what she could bring to women all across the empire. "Thank you. Let us resume- bring me the audit records from the famine seven years ago, and the crop yields for the past ten years. I want a list of which fiefs have unfarmed acreage in their territories as of this year. We need separate foodstores for the campaign that don't gut the kingdom's civilian grain supply." she instructed, the hurried shuffling of documents, scrolls, and reports marking the resumption of the review. Her father, having been weakened recently with a few strokes and physical rehabilitation to match, had been unable to take up his usual place at the helm of the campaign meetings. With his eldest son away on military missions, he had left Azara and Davar in his place during his leave of absence. It had been decided that if any sibling were to be left back home and stopped from participating in further military involvement, it would be Azara.
She could feel her heart break all over again knowing her father secretly hated how powerful she was alone, how much she could do if left unmarried.
She blinked the nasty thoughts away, sifting through the handful of paperwork she'd been given. Work to be done, no time to dwell on a man. Not Davar, and certainly not a fiance.
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"My lady, they've come."
Zaya's voice was quiet, calm- gentle, always. Azara savored it for a moment before giving the council a final nod. She hadn't the words to dismiss them, not with the betrothal sitting like a pit in her stomach. She had ignored it all day, brushing it off as with any other suitor her parents had sent- a key tied to the barn cats around the palace. Spilling tea on them. Riddles. Intimidating them with her wit. Anything, whatsoever, to delay what was surely the inevitable.
Zaya, the finest lady-in-waiting in the empire, followed Azara in silence to the door of her chambers, patiently and instinctively stopping outside the door. Grateful, Azara maintained this silence and slunk back in alone. Again she found herself in front of the mirror, and not so haughty this time. There she was, dispirited, yet always awash in the vermillion shades of her mother's lineage. Her hair was cleanly but rarely deviated from a neat tail or simply hanging from her shoulders on its own.
No makeup. No gowns. Nails short to allow for her prized gloves.
Azara loved herself this way, and it was rather the way that others did
not that incited her worst inner dialogue.
Surely neither the von Strattons, nor their son, would be any different.
A final once over- well dressed, tidy, red as could be, the royal crest shining and inlaid with her brooch. Fresh leather gloves, shoes still without blemishes. Her father's jacket, freshly pressed, no creases.
Elegant. Powerful. Respected. The only things she had ever wanted. And yet?
A knock at the door. She took a very, very deep breath, and exhaled slowly. "May lady, King Armand has come to collect you." Zaya announced softly from the hall. She opened the door for her father, waiting for judgment to pass.
"I see, then. No dress, eh?" he observed, a twinkle in his eyes despite the cane in his hand and the limp in his gait. Azara grinned, even if only a little wryly. "Wishful thinking won't drag me out of the palace, old man."
He smiled, crookedly, a thin man in fine clothes, a calm and peaceful father that Azara would always adore. "Or I could make it so dreadful that you run off on your own. Are you ready?"
"Is
he?"
the king didn't hide the deep bellows of his laughter. If anyone was capable of creating peace in Azara's heart for even a moment, it was her father the king.
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A servant threw wide the doors to the drawing room, and Azara was rigid at first. Something like a cross between her pride and her anxiety welling up all at once. Her mother gestured quickly for her to sit- almost as soon as she and her father were seated, the crisp click of shoes on the palace floor outside the drawing room were heard getting closer. She swallowed a lump before it could crack her voice.
"And still no dress?!" her mother hissed in the smallest whisper, accompanied by an annoyed but overly gentle slap on Azara's arm.
As the von Stratton family filed in and began their greeting, Azara found herself gazing upon their son immediately. He was dressed well- and certainly easy on the eyes. He seemed soft, refined, certainly a great bit more princely than her brothers had managed. She wasn't sure what she was looking for, though... a flaw, perhaps? A weakness? A reason to run? She cursed herself within the silent confines of her own head. It would be wrong to muddy the waters during a tea, she was already dressed like a bachelor herself. She had been told they'd met as children but there had been no memory to delve into. This man was a stranger.
"Thank you SO MUCH for making the trip here, how was your journey? Are you well?" her mother began, starting off as strong as usual as she looked earnestly toward Andromeda's family. Queen Sana was very proper, very deep in the etiquette rabbit hole. She waved the waitstaff over to begin placing refreshments, tea, a few scones, a few fresh pastries- nothing heavy, as the king and queen were certain the von Strattons would rather eat a larger meal privately in their guest chambers than be rushed into a royal feast fresh off the carriage.
The King, however, seemed to enjoy the graceful greeting from Andromeda, a light stroke of his beard signaling only to a select few his interest in the princess' new suitor. He seemed excited about the prospect of a peaceful husband for his daughter, of course. It had not gone fully unnoticed.
'Fuck. The ones he like are harder to get rid of.'
Azara leaned a bit, extending a gloved hand across the table for her new fiance to shake with no care for any potential scoldings or the dozen or more eyes in the room. Not the most ladlylike gesture, of course. "Welcome, Margrave, I'm Crown Princess Azara Lashgari Armandokht. A pleasure. Thank you for coming all the way to Behzadi, we hope you'll enjoy your stay with us." Azara offered coolly, smiling and of course
reasonably sincere. Her half smirk nearly gave her away. A test; Would he shake it or would he kiss it? Neither? Both?