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Ciaran let out a long, tired breath. “It’s fine. Don’t worry abou—”
He froze the instant Gavin leaned in to wipe at his jeans. Instinct—or panic—made him step back before he even realized he’d moved.
“Jesus, Gav—don’t.” He brushed Gavin’s hand away quickly, not harsh but definitely firm, and stopped the recording with a flick of his thumb. The phone felt hot in his hand, like the damn thing knew exactly what kind of mess it had captured.
“Just… don’t do that again,” he muttered, pushing the device onto Gavin’s bed with a gentleness that didn’t match the tension in his shoulders. “It’s gross. You’re my friend—I don’t need your jizz all over me.”
He dragged a hand through his hair, jaw tight, trying to suffocate the riot in his chest. The part of him that liked what he’d seen. The part of him he hated so deeply he could barely look himself in the mirror.
God, why couldn’t he just be normal? Why couldn’t he react the way a straight man should? Why couldn’t he stop replaying the moment Gavin’s face had broken open with pleasure?
He forced a loose shrug, playing the uninterested straight friend he’d spent years perfecting.
“I don’t know, man. I’m not into guys, so I wouldn’t be able to tell you what sells.”
Oh, it would sell. Every fucking second of it would sell.
He swallowed that thought whole, burying it where the rest of his secrets lived.
“Anyway… I’m fucking beat.” His voice dropped, quiet but steady as he turned to leave. “Clean up whatever you need to. I’m going to crash.”
He froze the instant Gavin leaned in to wipe at his jeans. Instinct—or panic—made him step back before he even realized he’d moved.
“Jesus, Gav—don’t.” He brushed Gavin’s hand away quickly, not harsh but definitely firm, and stopped the recording with a flick of his thumb. The phone felt hot in his hand, like the damn thing knew exactly what kind of mess it had captured.
“Just… don’t do that again,” he muttered, pushing the device onto Gavin’s bed with a gentleness that didn’t match the tension in his shoulders. “It’s gross. You’re my friend—I don’t need your jizz all over me.”
He dragged a hand through his hair, jaw tight, trying to suffocate the riot in his chest. The part of him that liked what he’d seen. The part of him he hated so deeply he could barely look himself in the mirror.
God, why couldn’t he just be normal? Why couldn’t he react the way a straight man should? Why couldn’t he stop replaying the moment Gavin’s face had broken open with pleasure?
He forced a loose shrug, playing the uninterested straight friend he’d spent years perfecting.
“I don’t know, man. I’m not into guys, so I wouldn’t be able to tell you what sells.”
Oh, it would sell. Every fucking second of it would sell.
He swallowed that thought whole, burying it where the rest of his secrets lived.
“Anyway… I’m fucking beat.” His voice dropped, quiet but steady as he turned to leave. “Clean up whatever you need to. I’m going to crash.”