General RP Stripping for the Credit Union and SLC (Crow)

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciraran flinches slightly, biting down hard on his lower lip, "But. . ."

 

[Crow]

"I know...I just needed to say it, this hurts" he says opening the door and going to his bed, curling up

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran shakes his head, "Gav. . ."

 

[Crow]

Gavin looks over at him, not feeling like talking anymore. Rather listening to whatever excuse or complaints Ciaran has

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran swallows, "We can't. . ." He lets out a dismayed sound, "I. . . We. . . Please don't. . ."

 

[Crow]

"I dont want to force you into anything but I can't just keep pretending its okay" he looks away, pausing "maybe I should move out"

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran flinches, "Don't leave me, please. . ." He whispers, looking down at his feet, "I. . . I don't. . ."

 

[Crow]

"How can I stay? Things aren't going to change and I'll just keep getting hurt?" He says standing back up and going to close the door "just leave me alone"

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran stares, stepping back, "I. . ." He squeezes his eyes shut and then turns, stomping away. He goes to his room, slamming his bedroom door shut, trying not to cry as he digs around for his shoes. He tugs them on, and then looks for his jacket. His hands shake slightly, grabbing his keys as he walks for the door.

 

[Crow]

He shuts the door, shaking himself as he falls to the floor, leaning against the door. He would let out a scream of anguish. He didn't know what he needed to do anymore.

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran goes out, wandering the streets in a daze. He presses a hand to his forehead, nails pressing into his skin as he tries to clear his head, the thoughts that were flitting past too fast for him to understand.

Gavin couldn't leave, could he? He needed his friend, Ciaran didn't want to be alone. But he couldn't give the other what he wanted either. He couldn't be with him, not like that, not forever. Ciaran had a map of his life ahead of him: finish his internship, get a job, meet a nice girl, get married. He hated it, sure, but it was what was expected.

He tugs at his hair gently, turning and going into a club. Not his usual scene, and he normally didn't turn to this kind of shit when stressed, but this was too much.

It's not until almost six in the morning that he comes home, stumbling and cursing as he bumps and slams into everything possible. He trips over the rug, bumping into the hall table and then towards the living room, letting out a pitiful sound as he falls onto the floor with a thud. "Ow. . ." He whimpers, closing his eyes.

 

[Crow]

Gavin had fallen asleep curled up in the floor. He didn't want to leave his best friend but he couldn't stay at that level anymore.

He woke up to hearing a thud and would walk out seeing his roommate on the floor. "Ciaran? What they hell are you up to?" He says leaning down and smelling the booze on him

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran whines, "I need you. . ." He whimpers, "I need you. . ." He curls up, sniffling. "I need you, you can't leave me. . . I don't know who I'll become without you. . ." He presses his face into his knees.

"Please. . ."

 

[Crow]

He froze hearing this "you dont mean that. You don't need me and even if you do its not the same way that I need you" he would kneel down, touching the side of his face and lifting it up "I love you Ciaran and it hurts too much to stay as we are, but we can't change, you won't change"

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran whines, reaching for him, "Don't leave me. I'm sorry. . ." He looks up, tears in his eyes. "I. . ." He trembles, trying to grasp onto Gavin.

"I-I. . ." He pulls away, something flashing across his face. "I don't want to hurt you. . ."

 

[Crow]

He struggled to contain himself and moved to hug his roommate "I will stay for you " he hated himself for saying this because he knew it would only hurt himself. But he couldn't leave him like this

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran pulls away, shaking his head, "I don't want to hurt you." He slurs, "I can't give you what you want. I'm sorry. . ."

 

[Crow]

"Then what the hell do you want? You want me to stay which will hurt me but you don't want to hurt me but you are sorry? How the hell am I supposed to feel?" Ge says taking a step back from him

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran looks up, looking pitiful. "I need you but you'll just be miserable. I don't want to make you miserable." He curls back into his ball.

"I dont. . . I just. . ." He whimpers.

 

[Crow]

"You just keep saying the same thing over and over. " he covers his face before moving to cuddle up with him "I will stay and I won't be miserable, how about that Ci?"

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran whines, "I don't want to hurt you! I'm horrible. I will never choose you, I can't choose you! Not without loosing everything else. . ."

 

[Crow]

"This everything you have worth not being happy? You can't tell me this is truly what you want!"

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

ciaran whimpers, "My family."

 

[Crow]

"I am your family too Ciaran. But that doesn't mean your family gets to control your life." He says making Ciaran look at him "my parents tried that and I had to leave them and im so much happier now"

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

"They're my family!" Ciaran snaps, "I'd never turn against them."

 

[Crow]

"Set some damn boundaries then? I hear your phone calls, you let them walk all over you" he says getting annoyed once again. He truly was never going to have his love

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran looks away, silent.

 

[Crow]

He sighs and moves closer or Ciaran, leaning on to kiss him, when words failed

 

[RhysTheFirebird]

Ciaran kisses him back, pressing close, "I'm sorry. . . I want to be here for you, I just. . ." He looks upset.

"I want to be with you, but. . ."

 

[Crow]

"Then do it, we can keep it a secret of needed" he says before kissing him once more, closing his eyes and pulling Ciaran into his lap