update on the latest happenings:
1. back in June or so: dad's cancer returned. skin cancer. he got the surgery to remove it and last I know all is well regarding that. but that was a nice little hit to my mental being.
2. I got really sick around that time and urgent care had me to go the hospital in an ambulance. was fine, just couldn't stop throwing up no matter what they did. of course, until they tried their strongest stuff, and I begged to go home xD held food and drinks down so they let me go.
3. mom has massive uterine fibriods that need to go. so Sept 9th she's having a total hysterectomy. money issues. major stress led to me flaring constantly. she kept going back and forth on whether she would have it or not, mainly due to money issues. we recently found out everything will be just fine so she is in fact having it done. hospital also told her she basically has to because they NEED to go. she cannot wait until next year.
4. for the last idk how long, 8 months or so? I've been having coughing fits trying to remove whatever is in my throat. fast forward to the Aug 24th when my body decided enough is enough and made me feel like absolute shit, timing was too good, went to urgent care the next day that implanted the idea to use my inhaler and that opened everything up, from my lungs to me realizing I've most likely slowly been suffocating for the past year or so from my asthma. whatever it was, went to work only to get a steroid shot and a nebulizer treatment and go home for the next few days until the wheezing was nonstop and everyone urged me to go to the hospital (Aug 27). in the hospital they said I hit the sepsis criteria and was treated for that. my lactic acid levels rose to major critical levels, etc. chest CT and abdomen CT ruled out everything yet my levels kept rising. if they wouldn't stop, I would have been admitted. thankfully, the next day, they finally went down and they allowed me to return home Aug 28. I'm currently on steroids and nebulizer treatments. today, Sept 1, I went out to eat with my family. then we went to the spirit halloween that was next door, and had an asthma attack. so I'm still not okay, unfortunately. but I do miss roleplaying. I know I can sit here and type. but please have patience~